I have some really awful habits. I'm not saying that I'm not great, because I know I am. I know have some really wonderful qualities, and I try every day to embrace those. But, I'm very aware of my flaws and awful habits- one of them is commitment. It's something I've struggled with for a long time now. From time commitment and procrastination to the feeling I get three months into a relationship. It's really scary. Sometimes I feel it's a habit that won't ever go away. I feel as if I'll never get finished early with an assignment. I know that I have four different term papers due the week after Thanksgiving. I know that I really need to get started and that I'd feel most comfortable with having everything completed by Thanksgiving. I see that. Am I actually going to complete them by Thanksgiving? Probably not. Does that really bother me? Absolutely. Same with running. I'm "running" five miles in two weeks. Five. Did I register for this months ago? Yes. Have I been training for it the way I should? No. Even worse, did I see it coming? Unfortunately.
Luckily, no guy here has actually wanted to be with me, so I guess we're okay on that end. They probably smell the commitment-phobia a mile away. It's a little depressing.
So what do I do? I know it's all mental. How do I change that? How do I motivate myself to get things finished in a timely manner? I've seen what happens when I procrastinate. I think about those feelings I had- stressed, tired, wishing I had started this earlier. So why can't I change these awful habits?
